Friday, August 18, 2006

Staying Alive, Staying Alive, ah ah ah

I am still here and still alive. A lot of stuff has happened in the last few months. I don't feel capable of explaining it all because to tell the truth, I am confused. I do not have internet access at this time so even if I wasn't confused and had great words of wisdom to post, I couldn't. I have spent the summer in flip flops. I have worked at a job that allows me, a nurse, to wear real clothes, wear flip flops, come in at 10 am, and read the newspaper. I have worked with the best group of people that I have ever worked with in my career. Now, like children starting back to school, my summer of fun has ended. I start a new job on the 28th. I will be the Assistant Director of Nursing at a long term care facility. I am completely ambivilant about this. I feel I should be excited but I'm not. There is a lot of shoulds in my life. I read somewhere, a long time ago, that shoulds denote guilt. That pretty much sums up how I feel lately. Guilty. and confused. Did I mention I am confused? Never mind, it was a rhetorical question anyway. But I remain alive and that has to count for something, doesn't it? I love you all, Yvette