So Tom baby has all the answers, huh? I guess with him being a female and everything he probably knows a lot about post-partum (sp?) depression. Geez. Honestly though if you would have asked me one week ago if a person should take anti-depressants I would have said no way. However now on my fifth day of one I can say I finally feel like my old self. Maybe better than my old self. I have had a complete turn around. I have more energy, I am sleeping, really sleeping for the first time in many months. I am dreaming again. I have always had vivid dreams and for months I have not dreamed. I think it was because I wasn't sleeping. It is truly amazing how important sleep is to a person. I had gotten to the point of not being able to function. It feels a little like what I imagine it would feel to be waking up from a coma. I look back on the last few months (that is significant) and see how low I was, depleted in energy and spirit. And for the first time in a long time I can look forward and choose a path to move forward on. There is something to be said for living in the now but to be stuck and to be barely surviving in the now is not good. I think in order to really live in the now and to enjoy the bliss that state can bring, you must also be able to look back and to look forward. If you have no knowledge of where you are coming from or where you might want to go then it makes the now a stagnant, unflowing place. The now should be flowing, dynamic, in tune with the natural order of things. This is a place I intent to aspire to from this day forward. Wish me luck!!
I love you all, Yvette